The Meeting !!

I had a train at 6: 20 am. Apparently till 5: 40 am i was blissfully occupied in my fairy land when "soemone" thankfully dropped in to wake me up. I guess it was signal that GOD really wanted me to go and see her. So here i was sitting pretty in the train at 6:19 all set with the requisite foos items and water bottle. The train reached at around 2 pm at the crowded Howrah Station. i quickly caught up a cab and rushed to Camac Street. I wanted to spend my maximum time with her. Gave her a call from the office to realise that a common friend of us was with her. No offences meant against the guy, but i wanted to spent some time alone with her.... I was kind off lill pissed off.... Another chubby affair i thought.... meaningless talks....never the less i have her around me so what could be better than this...

Around 6:30 pm i finally got free from the array of meeting scheduled for me... I headed into large mall (dont recollect the name) . Started searching for her but all could find was Pantaloon , Westwide ...etc etc. Soon they came out and spotted me. I greeted her with a restrained waiver of the hand.... however i actually wanted to give her a bear hug and tell her i missed you and i m so glad to see you. Anyways we qucikly rushed into Pizza Hut as i was completely exhausted and extremely hungry.... She was sitting besides me... at times i cud feel her ... I do not know y but i wanted to touch her... i wanted to hold her hand and sit there till eternity.... I wanted to probably talk to her and her only...on the contrary all i was doing is talking to him...

In the middle of the conversation our eyes met for a moment and i shyed away... her eyes are so damn beautiful, i feel like falling into those deep eyes and never come out.... Those eyes they speak so much... i can see all concern and care for me all over that face... i knw even though she was not talking but was patiently hearing to what i was saying and obviously displeased by it....

I guess i wanted her to get up and say why u r doing this? Hold my hand and explain me like a baby !! But nothing actually happened! Once we were done with the Pizzas, we quickly hopped into her car...

Clarity - Is it really required ?

Anybody well familar with Librans would understand the fallacy of balance of scales which leads to confusion... believe me a lot of confusion. I am no different than the usual libra in this regard. Many a times i m confused apparently because i tend to see both kinds of the coin so well that it becomes next to impossible to stick with one.... Sometimes it does seem like a huge blessing but yet at the other times i do wish to be more ignorant! Sometimes ignorance can be bliss because atleast it gives you some clarity and mental peace. May be your decision is wrong but atleast you know where you are heading.

But here i have a situation in life. I love this gal and i absolutely am very clear where i want to take this relationship. I guess i have never been so clear so convinced about anything in life... though people associated may not agree.... I m always confident about most of the things i say... Well I agree but deep down probably i have my confusions and the zig zag scales going from one side to the other. But here i am with the utmost clarity i probably can achieve, but still the relation is in a mess.... makes me think at times after i m probably happy with my scales hanging !! Atleast for 3 days in a week i would be convinced that probably she is not the ONE and have peace !!